Lizards and Ladies

My first introduction to public speaking happened at the delicate age of ten. I like talking to people and I like listening to what people have to say. Since, I've facilitated workshops and seminars on loads of subjects such as youth leadership, sexual health, peer pressure, gender relations and, of course, sex toys.

Last night, I had my first experience leading a seminar for The Art of Loving. The class was the Power of Pussy. It was a small group of women who were so open and emotionally available. It wasn't until we were all finished chatting that I realized just how great the energy was for such a small group. The women all said goodbye to each other like they had known each other for a long time. I strode home feeling confident and bubbly.

I'm not sure why this small success meant so much to me, but this story came to mind: A few years ago, I was living in Europe and working as a reptile keeper with a few other people, all women. After 4 or 5 months, I was finishing up my day and was about the place the last lizard back in his tank when my boss approached me. She said that they their animal collection was getting smaller and they just didn't need/couldn't afford another hand so I was being let go. I was a little upset but that was that. When I thought it was all over, she started a little rant that grew into telling me that I was the type of woman who just didn't get along with other females, and that I wasn't close to the others the way they were with each other. I was shocked, stunned. I had two close female friends working there. One that I was trying to help get out of an abusive relationship and one that I considered my big sister away from home. I couldn't understand why she saw me this way, and what was I doing to portray this image.

That was over 3 years ago and I still think about it quite a lot. Although I haven't really figured out what happened, I could see how I might have seemed separate from the group (other than the fact that I was working in a separate building than the rest a lot of the time. Only logistics). I have spent a lot of time looking into myself and the relationships in my life.

This small group of 4 or 5 women last night really helped me realize how far I have gone and what the future might hold. Thanks ladies!