I've Been Feeling Unsexy
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About self image…
I have not been feeling very sexy. I don’t feel like my body is attractive to myself or my partner. Obviously, I can’t read minds, I don’t know what others are thinking. I can only read my mind. And I am by far, my worst critic.
Recently I visited my family. My mother saw me and immediately commented on “how I got fatter.” Thank you mom, I am indeed trying to gain weight since I have a history with eating disorders.
I’m trying to remind myself that I feel noticeably happier, healthier, and more energized when I eat the food I want to eat. I love a Greek Salad. I also love to eat pizza. Water is so refreshing and delicious, so is the occasional soda. I love going outside with my friends and sharing a. A bad day always feels a bit better after a nice warm meal. A hot hike calls for a cold treat.
I love to cook for my friends. I love to provide them comfort and nutrition. There is nothing that makes me happier than enjoying a meal with my friends. I hate seeing them forget meals, skip them, or deprive themselves of food. I know they would hate seeing me do those things too.
I know I have it in me to love myself, like how I care for my friends. And if someone doesn’t like my body because I am taking care of my needs, I think their priorities are misaligned. I think I have to have a chat with myself.
Peace and Love.